Taken for granted.

I'm always taken for granted.
No matter where i am. Societies or groups or anything.
Nobody seems to appreciate me. Okay maybe not all of them.
But still, don't you think it's kind of disappointing that you gave all you have but people don't give a shit about you. I'm not blaming. Maybe you think i'm, but i'm not.
I'm just trying to state the fact that people just won't learn to appreciate.
Even me myself don't really learn how to appreciate.
I'm still trying to learn. Someday maybe they lost what they have, they/I might learn to appreciate.
Still. I'm kind of disappointed with them. Always.
I thought they might change their attitude but apparently they won't.
They don't even give a shit about what i said, i guess?
Seriously. I hope they won't make me way to fed up till i have no choice but to leave.
Leave them.. Hmm. Idk. I have always wanted to be a responsible person.
But no a person to be taken for granted.
I have such a busy life. That i don't even have the time to finish my homework and stuff.
I felt so sick of this life man.
Always have to do this and that. Meeting here and there.
Uncountable work to do. Serious shit? But people are skipping meeting here and there.
Hah, i'm speechless man. Dude, you should seriously do what you should be doing.
Kay i shall skip to the other topic.
I think people should think before they speak. Before they started to scream and scold and blame people.
You should see, if you are really THAT responsible when you're scolding the others.
Hmm. It's not for me to judge. But, that's what i see.
Kind of disappointed with le friend. Or maybe i have already given up fighting.
Sigh. Such a pitiful life i have.
Dad said he's gonna stop me from going out next month. Lol.
I guess it's a good thing? At least someone could control me. And i would have a reason not to go.
For ALL the activities. Time to stop i guess.
Orelse i don't think i would have time to study for SPM.
抱歉，我不曾拥有归属感。
Just wanna say this out. What's in my heart.
Because they never cared. Why should i give a * damn then.
I'm not an angel or robot. I still do have feelings.
The moment my anger reach the highest point, that's it.
It's over. Don't ever try to cross my limits.
Oh and i'm going for marching for the sports day this year ^^v
Muahaha. Although i don't really know how to march but, can't wait for it.
Kinda nervous :p
And btw, i saw my ex campers during the xueji camp this year :D
Heheh took photo with 'em. Damn happy when i saw them.

Nights.

xoxo. -imperfections-

-培训营之第一篇-

这次，又进了膳食组。
说实话，我这次不是乱乱进的LOL.
虽然说有点遗憾，进不到辅导组。
可是，也好，因为需要筹备辩题的时间真的太多了，怕没有时间。
慧琳做了组长，佳雯是副组长。
营里面，晓慧学姐(sorry,不懂写对没有) 有问我，为什么没有去当组长还是副组长。
其实我也不懂lol。也许是不想要承担这样的责任？
或则是觉得自己没有能力？还是懒惰？没有时间？
自己也不知道。就，我会担心做不好吧。
我也不懂，不管我做什么，都会不停的犹豫。到最后一事无成。Sigh.

几次会议，两次没有出席。
第一次因为考试，第二次因为有辩论比赛。
这一年来，总共缺席了三次会议。

-工委进营第一天-
我迟进营。因为要去补习。
然后我有叫工人煮午餐给我的==
结果，她竟然在我回到家的时候跟我讲面不够所以吃完了 -__-
所以我就饿着肚子，把全部东西收拾好了，我爸就载我去Section 14的Mcd打包。
就发生了一件很意外的事！
国刚竟然也在那边买mcd LOL. 真的是巧到极点。
基本上我这么低调的学记他应该认不出我的，但是我穿着的是全国营营衣 /.\
所以就有跟国刚讲了一下话 哈哈哈。
基本上有点心虚，因为其他人进营了然后我在买mcd lol.
我进营的时候大概是5点，然后玉玲学姐也有sms问我为什么还没有进营的。
进营的时候他们在练营歌手语，然后我前一晚熬夜才练好那个营歌手语的 :S
印象中，我是有去开幕彩排，但是没有去准备晚餐啦。上个营也是酱的
晚上的时候（应该是吧），有跟哲圣学哥聊精辩的东西。
原来是他给那个保姆我的电话的= =
其实那天学哥来的时候真的有吓倒我lol. 原本很紧张了的，变成更紧张-_______-
就聊到蛮久一下拉。
然后晚上我们几个膳食组睡食堂，一些睡宿舍咯。
小组会议在我来之前就已经开了，结果我很多东西都很blur.
原本还打算晚上要问慧琳的，但是她要跟佳雯讨论东西最后什么都没有问。
2点多就在食堂睡着了。然后大概5点多吧，我也不懂因为没有看时间，就起来了。
根本就睡不回去。很想要睡回去但是不懂zomok不能啊啊啊啊
然后就一直转来转去翻来翻去，其实我很怕的咯。一直不敢开眼睛。
怕一开就看到。。。 哈哈哈 很恐怖= = 就很怕很怕很怕很怕就对了
不懂几久过后，canteen uncle来了。终于有人了然后慧琳也起来了
轻松多了，就不怕了。 :P 第一天就这样结束了。

-营员进营第一天/工委第二天-
营员进营了，有点紧张。然后就在食堂站岗，看到学弟妹就骂。
骂的东西都是差不多一样的 = = 我骂的时候他们讲我骂到很大声 :p
钰君学姐也有在食堂跟我们讲怎样骂人。
不久后营员全部进营了，然后膳食组也要去开幕了。
然后一定要有人守食堂的。我跟美满就是那两个人，同时我们也要准备茶点给嘉宾。
开幕拿介绍牌的时候，我和美满都有去，只是大合照我没有去。
很伤心，真的。自己培训学弟妹的营大合照没有自己，那种感受。
不过我坦诚地说，我并没有埋怨任何一个人。 :)
赶回来食堂的时候，吓死我= =
一到食堂就看到韵娟带编辑室成员和嘉宾来食堂了。然后东西还没有准备好omg.
就有点慌，但是最后还好都没什么问题 。
他们走了过后，膳食组全部都回来了。就准备午餐咯。
营员来的时候我们就尽量保持严肃，然后一直催他们快点。
其实我当时很想要找我的小主人的 :( 但是需要站岗。
然后我看到一个在面试的时候交流到最多的营员，她对我微笑。
我竟然！不受控制地也要对她笑OMG,要笑出来的时候我的理智回来了。
我马上转头 -___- 但是我觉得她有看到我笑...
跑站的时候有去观察到我的主人，当时候听慧敏讲他很不错我就开心到 xD
看到他，我就觉得他真的很有责任感。很优秀的学弟。
可是！他到现在都没有add我，大便他。= =
过后我多数都在食堂，没什么特别的事了。
还有晚上的开会。过后就跟佳霖去宿舍睡。

Stin-ston-stan. RANDOM.

Actually i don't really know what's stin-ston-stan.
Just randomly wrote it ahahaha.
Busy days. :(
How i wish i would have time to do what i really want to do.
AHHH.
Need to type letters again. So annoying lol.
But it's okay since it's my job.
Debate competition.
The judge said something.
And it hurts alot, really a lot.
I rather not to get that one mark, than listen to your bullshits.
Don't you think it hurts?
I seriously don't understand what were you thinking.
Gonna leave everything behind and forget bout it.
Not going for accounts tuition anymore.
Hope that i could catch up. Like for seriously. :/

Loveess,

angie hui mei.

♥