Showing posts with label spm. Show all posts
Showing posts with label spm. Show all posts

Wednesday, March 19, 2014

Define friends.

I used to thought that she would be the one after her.
But obviously not.
What I thought stays as what I thought, it didn't become real.
When did we met? Probably when we was in form 3, in the same class.
I was never close with her during form 3, I had my own gang and our seats were kinda far away.
Until then, we became classmates again during form 4.
It shocked me when she posted on my wall saying that she's excited to be in the same class with me again and stuffs.
Cause we were never close.
So we started as friends and became closer and closer.
In two years time, we became close friends, but we don't really talk about our real problems or secrets.
We just hang out together and have fun, but not heart to heart talk.
We actually had our heart to heart talk this year.
Just few weeks ago.
She talks about her ex, I talk about my so called love story HAH.
Talk about studies, friends and stuff.
I started thinking, probably she would be my second closest friend.
Until today we had a fight.
It wasn't a big deal actually.
I was never someone's first choice.
And I was mad at her because she had to dump us, and goes out with her friends.
It's not literally dump, but to me still it's because we are her second choice, so she decided to go out with her friends than going out with us.
She was angry and mad at the word 'dump' that I used it to describe her action.
Oh well, it's your choice to go out with anyone you want, I can't control you.
I just somehow felt kinda sad.
Probably because of this fight we would stop talking or something?
Way too emotional these days.
I wasn't really mad at her for choosing her friends than us.
I was just a little unhappy.
Because cases like this always happen to me.
Such a sad case.

Maybe I should think what have I done wrong. Karma maybe?
Nah doesn't matter anymore.

Gonna take my spm results tomorrow. Wish me luck!
I really do need alot of luck.
Straight As would be kinda impossible for me to get it. Sigh.

Sometimes when I need someone to talk to, you're not there.

Saturday, December 7, 2013

熟悉的陌生人。

SPM过了。我毕业了。
对于SPM一开始很紧张,之后就很颓废的不读书。啊,真差劲的我。
也许这算是自我逃避吧。担心成绩出来达不了自己所要的效果,所以潜意识里拒绝读书。懦弱的我啊。
亦或是不想读书的借口。罢了,说再多也没用。
毕业了没有什么特殊的感受,毕竟跟班里的人的关系呃怎么说?相敬如宾 (那是形容夫妻的吧orz
总之就是我做了功课他们借来抄或者是来问问题的,再来是课堂上的partner,仅仅而已。
除了我的自己那群朋友是最熟悉最亲密(?)最好的啦啦啦。
不过想必过了几年就会如小学的好朋友般不再联络,或者是联络了也只说你好吗,班上如何之类的话语,再也没有交心的时刻,成为最熟悉的陌生人。
那显然不是我所希望的。我珍惜我每一位好朋友,但愿不会如此吧。
我只望能够找到一个愿意珍惜我的好朋友。
又要进营了。11号。
卸任了。正式,真正的卸任。
不该再埋怨,所剩的日子不多。而是该好好珍惜,不是吗?我会学习去珍惜的。
那日与他们去了midvalley。做了一个对我来说挺疯狂的事。就,去了chilis我们8个人只order了一样东西。==
然后呢那样东西可以无限量refill的。我们就在那里refill了三四次LOL. 感觉那里的员工以异样的眼神看我们 (心虚呗
那样就算是咱们的晚餐了。呃挺无语的哈哈哈。
期待25号与他们一起去玩。
今天去了湖边,在puchong。
到那个地方的时候很惊讶因为跟想象中的不一样。差别太大了。
虽然地方看起来不是很好,玩的东西也很少,不过最后我还是尽兴而归。
我很厉害的叻哈哈哈,我敢自己kayak到湖中间离岸边很远很远。自己一个人叻。好吧其实也没啥好暗爽的。
我爸没玩,因为一看到那个地方他就想走了的 LOL。
我的大弟没玩,因为刚病好,而且还在感冒。
原本小弟没玩,但是最后还是去玩了。他还在感冒所以玩到一半就被我爸拉去冲凉。
我妈超好笑的,她跟我家佣人kayak两次,两次都在湖中间回不来哈哈哈 xD
噢对了我的亲戚也是有来,表姐表妹表弟舅舅外公外婆都有来。
所以第一次回不来是他们教她怎样划回来,第二次是我教,不过还是划不回来,最后我姐游到湖中间来拉那个船。(不会很远但很深,如果是我一定不敢的==
第二次的时候她还有带我的小弟去,那次吓到我半死因为我的小弟在湖中间要爬出船 -___- 还有是差不多要到岸边但是那边还是很深的时候他直接跳出船,幸好最后没事。
我姐跟我一起kayak过一次然后跑去陪我表妹kayak了。然后她其实不是很喜欢kayak的,她好像讲过啦。
但是我相反啦啦啦我很喜欢kayak的感觉,很累很费力的感觉除外。
总之嗯这次我玩到很爽。至于我的家人就嗯大多数很不爽 (喂
我爸说要补偿带我们去其他地方玩嘿嘿。挺期待的啦啦啦。但是安排时间那些很麻烦,因为大家都很忙。

明天跟老爸去教育展,姐还有弟应该有去。相信会遇到很多学记哈哈哈。
晚安。话说信还没收到叻  TT 两个月了orz

8/12/13 Sun
凌晨0243

Saturday, November 9, 2013

幸福,是什么。

幸福,对每个人来说都是有着不一样的定义。
也许某些人觉得富有就是等同于幸福,或者有着很多朋友是幸福,也有人认为有着一个爱自己的人就是幸福。
我并不会否认那不是幸福,毕竟这种东西比较主观,仅仅局限于自己所感受到的。
我个人认为幸福是与自己的生活息息相关。其实有饭吃也就是幸福。
不过我认为我的幸福是拥有了一个家,这个家里的人都很疼我,足矣。
而如今的我拥有了幸福。我很感恩。
然而我觉得幸福会随着生活发展而改变。就如今日你觉得有饭吃就是幸福,也许明日你会觉得有辆车是幸福 ; 今日你觉得拥有一个家是幸福,也许长大后你会觉得拥有一个全心爱你的人才是幸福。
我只会选择珍惜当下,而不是埋怨我所没有的。我也会竭力去争取我没有,但却想要的。
嘿嘿,其实我还蛮常埋怨的...所以就呃顺其自然吧。
如今的我说不上单纯,也不是充满心机的人。
单纯只会被人伤害,自我保护仍然是被需要的。我只不过是不想被伤害而成长了,亦或是被伤害了所以成长了。
每个人生活中都必须要经历风风雨雨才能成长,虽说我经历的其实很少,但其实那一丁点儿我都已经觉得疲累。
我真的很讨厌有心机的人。罢了,也许某日我会成为他们的一分子。仅仅是时间问题吧。

两个科目。过了。
说不上好,也不算不好。
但愿能考到不错吧。
这两日有些无所事事。也不尽然。
只是做了此时不该做的事,竟然去追戏,看小说。
自己的自制力果然令人无语。
今天晚餐后去看了弟弟学校的音乐晚会。看到了自己的母校的乐队表演。
其实回想起来自己完全没有真正想过要去参加这类的东西。
很震撼。很佩服打鼓的觉得特别有英气。看起来真帅气 xD 就算是女生打鼓也是。
有两三年没回母校了,似乎没有什么可留念的。在老师眼中乖乖女一个,但是班上乖乖女太多了,不差我一个。
不过有个巧合就是我的级任竟然成了我弟弟的级任呵呵。
每次她跟我弟弟提到我,她就会称赞我当初多么乖写字多么美(因为我弟弟的字实在是惨不忍睹)哈哈哈。(暗爽中

对于SPM到了我反而没有那么紧张。
就只能尽力而为虽然我一直浪费时间 -.-
不过我谨记我教练曾经说过的,他说如果我们准备了30%,那就用尽那30%.很多时候就算你准备了100%但是没有用尽100%而只用了30%,那还不就一样。倒不如顺其自然能准备多少就多少,重要的是可以用尽多少。

只要尽力了,便毫无遗憾。
也许成绩出来不理想,我会伤心,会哭一下,但至少我会觉得我尽力了 。(虽然说得有些心虚LOL)
接下来的日子还长呢,为了一件事而停留额是不会去耗费那样的时间的。
倒不如去看我的小说 (喂

啊忘了说今天的糗事。
大概11点多晚上跟我姐还有弟弟出去吃夜宵。
我姐载我们去。
有些部分就跳过因为不是重点。
我们就去了某个地方吃东西,呃基本上是我和弟在吃而已,我姐说她很饱。==
然后就吃饱了就要回家。
就到了我们parking的地方还有我们的车。我姐用钥匙尝试去开车门但是开不到。然后尝试了很多次,有地方插钥匙的都插了还是开不到。
最后只好去到mcd等待老爸来救援。
不久后老爸到了要我们去我们车那边找他。
我们找到了我们的车但是却没发现爸的车。我姐就叫我去前面看看。我走了几步路,突然看到我爸的车。
还有我爸隔壁还有一辆车,我们的车。
我就赶快回头,原来那辆所谓我们的车根本不是我们的车!车牌都不一样==+++
就悲剧了丢人了。我们三个人三双眼睛竟然没有发现车牌不一样...
我当场爆笑狂笑因为觉得实在太好笑了LOL。
我们大家当时的表情就是砸到,wth,还有老爸老妈无奈的表情哈哈哈。
总之就是很废啦。半夜十二点多了竟然搞出个乌龙。
不过想必这会是一个很美好的回忆。
回去自然被老爸骂我们笨==
三个人叻竟然没发现。我还问我爸,我们半夜酱出事他不担心咩LOL
他竟然说不担心== 不过我知道他担心啦 (自作多情
大家平安到家了。噢话说当时我们一家人都跑去那里了。哈哈哈。

就到这里吧。要去刷牙睡觉了。
祝我sejarah还有pa可以顺顺利利。

10/11/2013 Saturday
凌晨0147

Tuesday, October 29, 2013

不堪。

I have no idea what to do.
Have to admit that I started to feel scared. I'm afraid.
I really do.
Counting down. Day by day.
Just few more days to go.
But I'm not prepared at all, NOT AT ALL.
When people asked what have I studied, I didn't know what to answer.
I don't even know what I'm doing these few days.
Not enough time already.
What should I do now?

I felt so insecure.
Sigh. Who do I mean to you actually?
Too much stuff. Bothering me, distracting me.
I feel like running away.
Dad came back already. Mom didn't know what to say to me already.
I'm a bad bad bad kid.
Add maths is killing me. I spent all my time doing add math and didn't bother to care about bm or sej or eng or even accounts.
Damn.
I should chill now, and start to study.
Few more days.

说实话原来是这样的,那种感受。
如果真的就这样结束了,我该怎么办?
自己的心,连自己都不清楚呢。
究竟自己要的是什么,想的是什么?!乱。
现在不是时候。
很心烦很担忧很思念很慌乱很无助。
但你不在,一直都。
我无法向任何人诉说我的担忧我的惊慌我的无助只能装作我很好。
罢了。就是这样,才能成长不是吗?

迷茫。迷惘。

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

如空气般重要。

题记••••••••••••••••• 愿意在我面前妥协,拿我没办法的人,是真心对我好的人。

因为重视,珍惜,所以不愿意伤害,却又无法放弃,只能无奈妥协。
这是在文广的某一篇文中看见的,给了我很大的感触。
我的家人就是这样。
他们对我总是妥协,哪怕我是多么的不可理喻。
爸又出国了。
前几年还不会这么频密的说。
今年似乎出了有大概5次?还是3次?不是很记得了。
那天老爸抱着弟弟然后跌倒了。
因为弟弟太重。一时平衡不了就跌倒了。
我并没有看到,但是我听着也感到心痛。
在我成长的同时,我的父母也在哀老。
我是个很依赖父母的小孩,真的。
他们对我来说就如空气般重要。
我是个被宠坏的孩子 (笑
我总是很任性,总是气他们,我不好,真的不好。
我也想让他们安心但是不知为何总是做出让他们生气的举动。
我爸妈都很疼我。但是我很少对家里付出,反而是我姐很多东西她都在做。
嗯我不是个好孩子。
我不会承诺改变因为我从不认为我会改变也不要做无谓的承诺。
但是我会一直爱着他们。

今天我煮了 spaghetti 给我家人当午餐吃叻嘿嘿。
不过其实也只是煮给maid还有那两个弟弟还有我啦。
我竟然忘了有seminar。悲哀。
然后就缺席了science的seminar==++
我的记忆力真的衰退得很厉害。TT
不懂为什么会忘记。
唉唉。

昨天去seminar看到那个几乎两年未见的老师。
我很喜欢那个老师的。
他以前是我form 1-3 的math补习老师。但是之后就没有看到他了,除了上次那个颁奖典礼。(也是2年前了呃还是一年多
没有想到add math的seminar是他来教。他竟然也是有教add math补习,不过在kl分行啦,所以就算我知道也很大可能不能去orz
久违了,老师。
那时看到他的时候情绪超激动的。
啊总之很庆幸能够再遇见这个老师。

他说不能fear,要以平常心去对待。
以前pmr的时候我好像就是以平常心去对待的,只是不知为何spm唉。
一切顺其自然吧。

SPM快到了。

原来还是个过客。
会怀疑自己的心痛是真实的吗?
因为其实连自己都不相信会这样。
遥远。却又看似在眼前。飘渺的。
1021过了。过了。
毫无惊涛骇浪(?)的过了。还真有点不可思议。
我忘了吗?也许吧。
两年了呢。呵呵。知道不值得等了。
明年的1021,希望我连想你一分钟都不会有。但是几秒没关系吧 (喂

Time to move on I guess. Wasted too much time doing worthless stuff.
You don't even know.
Why am I so pathetic? Lol.
Still hoping that someday you might.. Nah, nevermind.

Stay strong.

Sunday, October 13, 2013

心已死,却又为了谁而活。

我是一个活得很没心没肺的人,同时却又很在意着身边的人。
这就是自相矛盾吧。
有时候我会很怀疑自己进入了这个团体究竟是对的,还是错的?
不对,似乎我进的团体都不适合我。
从中一坚持到如今的辩论,依然是辩论,在我心中却似乎有些变质了。
前几天与知己通话至凌晨两点多,仍然很怀念那段很快乐的日子。
那时的我,与他们在一起辩论,是快乐的。
也许如今的我在辩论偶尔也是会感到开心,却已经找不回了,找不回当初的感受。
甚至已经开始犹豫,是否该离开了呢?可是不知为何却有些害怕,离去了的我该如何面对他们?我不知道。
我很懦弱,没错。
今夜的我快疯了。今天我很想哭,痛痛快快的哭一次。
我并不介意教练的忽视。好吧,其实我挺介意的。谁会喜欢被忽视呢?
我累了。你说我没天赋,我并没有放弃。
只可惜你始终看不见,看不见我的努力,那就算了吧。
已经五年了,就算继续下去,应该也没用吧。也许我真该听她的,干脆离去。
犹豫不决是我常常遇到的。我害怕面对未知。唯一留恋的,仅有那两位真正用心对我的吧。不过其中一位似乎有些,疏离了。
未知的恐惧,让我止步于此,无法往前,无法离去。

今日让我心死的,却不是这些。
看似无谓的,累积下来,真是受不了。
很用心的去待人,却得到一堆敷衍的回应,想说,我累了。
把自己的真心付出,也许我依旧太天真。
常常说笑笑就过了,我又何尝不知那说起来容易却很困难的事。
在我处处尝试去体谅你们的处境的同时,你们是否尝试过去体谅我的处境?
而你真的,太令我失望,失望透了。
你总是有着诸多的借口,让我不得不相信了你。
但你能天天在面书上发表言论什么的,你说你忙?那太可笑了,可笑之极。
而我还真的相信了,噗,我也觉得我很可笑。
这样也行。
呵呵,你,太,厉,害,了。
这样厉害的人我高攀不起,只希望你能自己检讨吧。
哪怕是在辩论的那个你,也变了。
为什么大家都变了?还是是我太笨,跟不上脚步。
自从你跟着他之后,大家都说你什么,呵呵你不懂吧?我也不说,太伤你自尊了。
我从未为你袒护,也从未说过你一句坏话。除了那一次你过于高傲的言行举止。
可惜你高攀了别人,而我也高攀不了你。也不愿高攀似你这类人,因为我看透了原来你是这样。原来你是这样的人。

所有烦恼一股脑地潮涌而出,我也许是忍耐许久,也许是酝酿了许久,也许是...太多的也许了。

我还是很懦弱。
对于考试,我总是随遇而安。
船到桥头自然直是我对于考试的唯一感受。
可是为何今年多了这么多的压力?
无论去到哪里都听到人说,SPM,SPM,SPM。天啊,就快被逼疯了。
所以出现了反效果。我并不因为压力而读书,反而跑去读小说。
因为沉浸在小说里头能够让我短暂的逃离,逃离这个世界。
好烦,好烦。
这几日我就是这样度过的。
也许堕落够了,就该振作了。
我会好起来的,你也一样。

今天至少有家人陪伴,胡思乱想的时间少了。
我该变回快乐的我。
我不会为了谁而改变,而谁也不能改变我。
家人依然是最重要的。
今天耗时陪了弟弟一个下午。
似乎好久,好久没有这么做了。
长大后的我太过忙碌了吧,看不见自己身边的人,其实,一直都在。

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

明天就是econs考试了。
并不知道为何自己在这里。
当A+似乎成了遥不可及的梦想,我又该如何面对?
不停的告诉自己预考很重要预考很重要却还是不停的在浪费时间。
压力已经堆积如山但我却选择去忽视。
太想要得到而发现自己很可能做不到的感受是如何的?我也无法解释。
也是那是唯一一个能够证明自己的存在的吧。
又或许是自己怕输。没关系,已经输得什么都没了。
偶尔会觉得考试是一场赌注。若你刚好背的考试有出,那你赌赢了。
但总归还是要努力。若不努力,那就什么都没了。
很害怕明天的考试。
中四的时候没有一次不是A+,可是一到了中五似乎一切都变了。
直接跳到了A-。是自己不够努力吗?
是的。被太多太多的东西影响。
你会认为那是借口。嗯也许是吧。
读书不再愉快的感受让我无所适从。
那该怎么办?
除了继续读书,我想不到该怎么做。
如今还有好多还没读完。都不停的告诉自己说不要太有信心但却仍然无效。
我依然想保持着A+.

很喜欢看你的文字。
那种感觉截然不同。
在我无所适从的时候看看你的文字。
总会让我感到安心。
坚持下去。

Loves,

Angie. :)

Thursday, September 5, 2013

莫名的。

预考了将近一个星期。
还是没有那种在考试的感觉。
我怎么了?不懂,真的不懂。
昨晚熬夜到4点。而且是2点多才开始读的。之前,就不说了。
都没再读。不停的告诉自己,这个考试很重要。
可是我究竟在做什么?我不懂。陷入了迷惘。
明天考华语。嗯。
说实话,到了部落那里看到太多文笔很好的人。
自以为文笔算是不错的我,发觉到其实我的文笔根本不值一提。
我不是一个很会表达自己的人。所以很容易让人误会。
但是我不喜欢用语言来伤人。
所以我很努力的,学习在表达。
福炎的信收到了。呵呵那种亲自拿着信的感觉真不同。
只是不知何时才会有时间回复。幻月我的信流失了吗?唉。

真的有种莫名的自卑。
看着那些文笔很好很好很好的人。
心中就会冒出一句话说,你那么差,根本不应该和他们有什么交集。
因为你,不配。
确实甭否认。我果然还是败了,败在自己的手里。
很努力的在压抑着那种感觉,很无措。
过于成熟的世界,不适合我吧。太过犀利的语言,我受不了。
我是个小孩,不想长大的小孩。
我只有一句话。
请不要忘了我,好吗?


默默的守着你,我不在意。
也许偶尔你会想起我。亦或者你不会记得我。
夜幕降临的时刻,是否会想起曾经的我们。
绵绵的雨,就如我,对你的思念。

对自己说声加油。晚安。

Friday, August 30, 2013

Complicated feelings.

I have so much problems right now.
Too much that I couldn't even list all those problems out.
What's the problem with me?
I just hate myself. For my attitude, my selfishness.
Ok I shall talk about this problem/ feelings that I had.
Most probably no one will see this but still, it's better if no one sees this.
Urgh the sentence doesn't sound right but yeah who cares man. It's my blog. So I don't care.
Back to the topic.
Well I went to school yesterday and teacher gave tips.
Oh and my friends didn't come to school, they stayed at home to study.
I have this not to give them the tips feeling because they chose not to come to school, and that's not my prob right? Right?
But this makes me look selfish. I shouldn't be selfish. At first I thought of giving them but my partner said aiya don't give them la since they stayed home to study. Their loss.
So I changed my mind and decided not to give them the tips.
But I felt guilty oh noooo.
So yeahhhhh
我就是一个很自私的人唉
Stilllllllllll urgh.
Maybe I'll give them, maybe. If I'm in a good mood & have alot of time to type/ take a pic of it and send them.
Most probably I will cause I didn't want to spoil our friendship just because of the tips lol.
Trials is on Monday. Omg few more days to go.

Should jump off from the building cause I didn't study much.
Ohgodsaveme. :(

Actually I missed you quite alot.
Oh and I hate being ignored :(
Can you try not to ignore me? Sigh sigh

And sibeh angry and stuff cause they didn't reply me didn't reply DIDN'T REPLY ME
WHY CAN'T YOU GUYS BE MORE UNDERSTANDING
I'LL BE HAVING TRIALS IN FEW MORE DAYS BUT YOU GUYS WANT ME TO CALL YOU ONE-BY-ONE.
DAMN I'M FED UP. 怨念。
DON'T MAKE ME HATE YOU GUYS.
DON'T MAKE ME LEAVE.
HOW MANY TIMES YOU GUYS WANT TO DISAPPOINT ME?
So sick of it.
Cmon you guys are not 3 yrs old kid.
Please la dude just reply me can ahh. Wth. Feel like swearing @(&:_)=$;;&::_

我很生气,后果很严重。
很讨厌你们很讨厌很讨厌我不要回去不要回去了不要不要回去看到你们我就生气很生气你们去吃大便please吃大便 很讨厌你们不珍惜我只珍惜她到头来明明就我做得很多她不会主动去做然后我很不爽但是她看起来很好人我又不敢摊开来说我真差劲之前我就知道你的态度很有问题了想不到在后面真的那样讲我们妈的如果我们全都走了我看你们办什么营鸡蛋糕啦你我们还不是为你好就不能尝试去了解吗你很有问题每次都这样。

Saturday, August 17, 2013

Lost.

Kind of lost right now.
No matter in friends, studies or the other aspects.
I'm afraid cause I'm becoming the second her. Maybe.
The one who purposely make friends with popular people.
I really do hate those kind of people so I don't wanna become one of them.
Sigh.
Trials is around the corner but I have not started studying at all.
And I just came back from camp yesterday.
How. Left two weeks only.
Can I manage to finish all the syllables? Oh god I'm so worried.
Save me.
Ishouldhavelistentowhatmydadsaid.
Feel like crying.
What if I fail my add maths in trials?
Urghh.
Regretted but I guess it's kind of late already.
:( :'( :/ TT
Shall start studying today.
But I have to finish all my work first. Again. haihhh.

And I haven't received my letter yet.
Was so excited yesterday that when I came home I thought there might be a letter for me.
But too bad excitements gone and disappointments came...
Still waiting. :)
Heh.

With lots of love,

angie hui mei

Friday, June 28, 2013

Taken for granted.

I'm always taken for granted.
No matter where i am. Societies or groups or anything.
Nobody seems to appreciate me. Okay maybe not all of them.
But still, don't you think it's kind of disappointing that you gave all you have but people don't give a shit about you. I'm not blaming. Maybe you think i'm, but i'm not.
I'm just trying to state the fact that people just won't learn to appreciate.
Even me myself don't really learn how to appreciate.
I'm still trying to learn. Someday maybe they lost what they have, they/I might learn to appreciate.
Still. I'm kind of disappointed with them. Always.
I thought they might change their attitude but apparently they won't.
They don't even give a shit about what i said, i guess?
Seriously. I hope they won't make me way to fed up till i have no choice but to leave.
Leave them.. Hmm. Idk. I have always wanted to be a responsible person.
But no a person to be taken for granted.
I have such a busy life. That i don't even have the time to finish my homework and stuff.
I felt so sick of this life man.
Always have to do this and that. Meeting here and there.
Uncountable work to do. Serious shit? But people are skipping meeting here and there.
Hah, i'm speechless man. Dude, you should seriously do what you should be doing.
Kay i shall skip to the other topic.
I think people should think before they speak. Before they started to scream and scold and blame people.
You should see, if you are really THAT responsible when you're scolding the others.
Hmm. It's not for me to judge. But, that's what i see.
Kind of disappointed with le friend. Or maybe i have already given up fighting.
Sigh. Such a pitiful life i have.
Dad said he's gonna stop me from going out next month. Lol.
I guess it's a good thing? At least someone could control me. And i would have a reason not to go.
For ALL the activities. Time to stop i guess.
Orelse i don't think i would have time to study for SPM.
抱歉,我不曾拥有归属感。
Just wanna say this out. What's in my heart.
Because they never cared. Why should i give a * damn then.
I'm not an angel or robot. I still do have feelings.
The moment my anger reach the highest point, that's it.
It's over. Don't ever try to cross my limits.
Oh and i'm going for marching for the sports day this year ^^v
Muahaha. Although i don't really know how to march but, can't wait for it.
Kinda nervous :p
And btw, i saw my ex campers during the xueji camp this year :D
Heheh took photo with 'em. Damn happy when i saw them.

Nights.

xoxo. -imperfections-