A good start, probably.

On the day when we were getting our SPM results, I saw her.
Well of course she's with her friend.
The one that she decided to go with her.
Hmm actually it doesn't bothers me anymore.
This incident actually happened to me once, with the other person.
But until now, I'm still really close with that person. I'm glad that till now I still have her :)
I have actually doubted if I should give up on that friendship but luckily,  I didn't do it.
That's all about it. Not a big deal though.
So yeah she went off with her friend & and I went for my driving class.
Oh yeah I lost my phone.  Like literally lost it.
Dropped it and someone took it.
Because that person offed the phone zzz. Idiotic shit why the hell you steal my phone.
It's not even IPhone or any latest smart phone damn you man seriously.
So I went for driving lesson & before that the uncle only had to fetch me to school.
But he changed his mind because I lost my phone can't contact my parents to fetch me home from school. He waited for me while I take my spm results & fetched me back home at last :)
He's such a good uncle! Glad that I had such a good driving instructor :)
I GOT 9 As.  5A, 4A-,1B+.
Felt really grateful that I got 9 As.
I wouldn't say that my hard work pays off because I didn't actually worked hard.
Overstressed myself during spm and didn't really studied much.
But still I felt a little disappointed cause I got B+ for add maths.
And I didn't get any A+ sigh.
The worst thing is I can't get any scholarship using this results sighhh.
Can't lessen the burden for my family :(
I registered for A levels at TARC already.
I pledge that I would work hard and get good results.
No more slacking, no more playing around.  Time to be serious.
I should not will not procrastinate anymore.
Cause it's A levels so I can't get any loans nor scholarship sigh.
So yeah gotta work hard!
Shouldn't be bothered by small small matters anymore.
Or maybe shouldn't be in a relationship yet LOLOL hahah dk man.

Heh went ou the other day to work.
My job scope was to help people to print out photos & post it on Facebook if they're willing to.
This was a Nestlé roadshow.
Kinda big though. Met a brainless partner lol ok maybe not.
I was frustrated cause she talked bad about me, and her attitudes toward me.
She often talks to me in a rude way & I HATE IT.
I seriously hate it when people talk to me in a rude way.
Dude did you parents taught you to respect people? Can't you like speak in a polite way?
Hmm probably it's my fault because I always day dream while working lolol kay nvm.
Oh and the one I'm obsessed to is working in ou also HAHA.
So erm I actually asked him to have dinner/lunch with me and take photo at my photo booth.
GUESS WHAT?  HE CAME HEHEH and find me during his break.
So I decided to go for break with him so erm we went to eat dinner I think?  Cause it's around 5.
We talked a lot,  like literally a lot during the dinner haha.
Not very awkward though.  Lucky that it's not awkward haha I thought it'll be awkward :p
So yeah time passes really fast then we finished our dinner.
Idk what made me so brave,  but I told him hey we haven take photo yet.
It's around 6 already so I guess you have to go back already right?
He said no la i still have some time.
We went to take photo and he left after that hahah.
A good start, probably?

But too bad I started being not that obsessed with him already LOLOL.
Heh anyways still he started replying my message and not ignoring my msg anymore yay ^^

Bought few stuff yesterday and spent damn a lot of money.
A black jegging from padini which costs 60 bucks. Sienz cause I didn't have a proper and comfortable black pants.
Bought a bag for 55 bucks sigh used up over 100 already.
And a black shoe from voir luckily it costs only 23 heh.
Spending money like water zzz. Gotta control myself already.
Paid A levels first sem fees yesterday.
Spending money everywhere argh.

Define friends.

I used to thought that she would be the one after her.
But obviously not.
What I thought stays as what I thought, it didn't become real.
When did we met? Probably when we was in form 3, in the same class.
I was never close with her during form 3, I had my own gang and our seats were kinda far away.
Until then, we became classmates again during form 4.
It shocked me when she posted on my wall saying that she's excited to be in the same class with me again and stuffs.
Cause we were never close.
So we started as friends and became closer and closer.
In two years time, we became close friends, but we don't really talk about our real problems or secrets.
We just hang out together and have fun, but not heart to heart talk.
We actually had our heart to heart talk this year.
Just few weeks ago.
She talks about her ex, I talk about my so called love story HAH.
Talk about studies, friends and stuff.
I started thinking, probably she would be my second closest friend.
Until today we had a fight.
It wasn't a big deal actually.
I was never someone's first choice.
And I was mad at her because she had to dump us, and goes out with her friends.
It's not literally dump, but to me still it's because we are her second choice, so she decided to go out with her friends than going out with us.
She was angry and mad at the word 'dump' that I used it to describe her action.
Oh well, it's your choice to go out with anyone you want, I can't control you.
I just somehow felt kinda sad.
Probably because of this fight we would stop talking or something?
Way too emotional these days.
I wasn't really mad at her for choosing her friends than us.
I was just a little unhappy.
Because cases like this always happen to me.
Such a sad case.

Maybe I should think what have I done wrong. Karma maybe?
Nah doesn't matter anymore.

Gonna take my spm results tomorrow. Wish me luck!
I really do need alot of luck.
Straight As would be kinda impossible for me to get it. Sigh.

Sometimes when I need someone to talk to, you're not there.

Sad day. Frustration.

I had a bad day.
Well maybe not in the morning but when we were going back from her house to ktm I had so much problems.
I walked really slow because I brought so much luggage. I'm so stupid why did I brought so much stuff?!
They had to wait for me and even walk behind me so that I won't be left out.
They even helped me to take my stuffs.
I felt so useless, why did I caused so much problems to them? :(
I even fell down at the road side.
Wth urh. What's the problem with me man, walk also can fall down.
They had to wait for me again.
And walk much more slower because I hurt my knees.
I really felt bad because they're already rushing I tried to walk fast then I didn't saw the 梯级 or smth then I fell and everything just went wrong like that.
It started to be a bad day.
And before we leave the house they asked about 喜欢哪一个学记/对哪个学记有好感。
I didn't want to answer but in the end I was forced to answer lol.
Oh the reason I didn't want to answer is erm.. Well I don't really wanna say it out.
The answer I told them is 不完全是正确但是一部分是真的。(他们问好感嘛)只是喜欢的我没说是谁/什么区罢了 :p
只可惜到了最后我发现其实他好像根本就不是喜欢我所以我很懊恼然后我好像间接告白了 -_____-
如果那个时候他是误会我的意思那他就会认为那是告白了。
只是唉，不觉得他是喜欢我的lol所以告白干屁啊。
之前应该只是我的错觉？嗯。毕竟他已经说了...
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊

我的区的聚会好像要cancel了？
很挫败很无奈很生气很无助很想哭很 frustrated
基本上这个区聚会全部都是我一个人在安排一个人在做但她也是有帮我。有东西我也是有跟她一起讨论。她不能去。
我只是觉得我很努力去搞好这个聚会了，为什么会这样？我不明白。
已经是最后一次的聚会了。
我的用心大家看不见？罢了。
然后我一直post说要快点说快点按going/not going他们不会去按的。
tmd不会看华语字？你不能去就按啦我又不是会打你到你家面前骂你。
还要我一个个sms问能去吗
我不想cancel可以吗？
真的。你们不要去说被禁足那你就禁足个够吧。不要来了。
我不想见到你们。我很伤心。很气馁
我教出来的学妹有一半是根本做事没有交代的
我是个废才什么都做不好，什么都不会。

Why did all these happens the day before my birthday?!
THANKS YO, IT'S THE BEST BIRTHDAY PRESENT -.-