人生，第一次。

虽然说明天还有预考我不应该在这里但是还是写一个超短篇的吧。
就突然很想写。 今天看到了我高数补习老师的儿子，很帅啊啊啊啊。
超级像angmo,也就是外国人。他的鼻子很美很高嘿嘿。（众：你变态！
但是被我姐打断然后我就没有心情写了 :(
唉还是继续写吧。
感觉上今年的我比去年开朗了很多。
基本上前几年我伪装快乐伪装得好辛苦。
几年前的泪嗯都消失不见了。
也许是很坦白很痛快的对着大家哭了一场吧。我觉得坦诚真的很重要。
今年的我在很努力的改变。
我要变成一个嗯，怎么说？总之就是变啦。
呵呵开始跟很多人都有了交谈。
虽然说负面的东西还是有。
但是只要很小心翼翼的不要把它放大就行了。
大事化小小事化无。
很努力的在学习中。当了联谊会说实话看到了很多。
每每他们在说的时候就只是静静的听着。不想给予任何的意见。
无论是有意见或无意见都好。也许是我胆小不敢说，也可能是我不愿意说。
随缘吧。
有些事情不要过于执着就好啊。
认认真真痛痛快快的过完这一辈子就行。不要感叹命运的不公。
人生就是要来享受的。不是来受苦的。
虽然说我依然在受苦当中.........
但我会很努力的把它变成一种享受。
就好象有人说过只要那份工作是你的兴趣，那样对你来说不是一份工。
而是一种享受。
对于未来仍然迷迷糊糊的我，嗯不知道该怎么选择。
船到桥头自然直。想那么多也没用啊啊。
现在的我变得很开心。不会无时无刻在感到悲伤之类的。
也许是放下了，不再那么的执着吧。
一直以来考试都很奋力读书，除了这次-.-
就是不懂为什么啊啊。我会努力的。
我并没有很聪明的头脑，也不想作弊。
但会尽量做到最好的。
依然会很单纯的我。也许某天会很怀念吧。
还未出社会就让我继续的单纯下去吧。
很想什么都不知道，什么都忘掉。

人生本来就喜怒无常，不然什么叫人生。
要活得精彩些。
说实话我觉得我的中学生活很精彩。
第一次，我参加了学记。
第一次，我去了辩论比赛。
第一次，我们赢了。虽然只是初赛，但对我来说还是很值得怀念。
第一次，我入围了最佳辩论员。
第一次，我成为了辅导员，认识了很多小孩，学习耐心的对待他们。
第一次，我带着一堆行李上公共交通。
第一次，我在营里面4天三夜哭了将近3天。
第一次，我在厕所冲凉那么快。（笑
第一次，我的报道上了报纸还有学海。
第一次，我去了全国营认识了小梁还有晓丝。其他的逐渐疏离。
第一次，在全国营被吓到 。（一开始的时候）完全没有玩过的游戏。
第一次，我去竞选协调员还当上了协调员。
第一次，我在food republic那么多人的地方教导你们做计划书。而且是站在前面。
第一次，认识了那一堆很可爱又很气人的学妹们。
第一次，我们去专题报道的时候冒着雨跑来跑去找巴士等taxi.
第一次，我在你们的面前崩溃了。说出心底的话。结果说到一半竟然发现有学哥姐在偷窥-.-
第一次，我们一起去了槟城。我们搭ktm, 我们骑脚踏车，我们14个人睡一间房间。
第一次，我跟男生share口水 LOL 还有睡同一张床 （请不要想歪==
第一次，我发现骑脚踏车被人载其实没有想象中的浪漫只有害怕。好吧也许有但是跟他们是不会有的 xD (不要打我
第一次，半夜一点去吃mamak，然后见证了学哥的milo tarik。
第一次，我们去极乐寺。爬了那么高。拍了好多好多的照片留恋。
第一次，我们三个坐国刚的车去ktm (我觉得很历史性一下orz
第一次，我去了花踪，认识了平路老师还有很多很多的老师。
第一次，我对华文改观了，对文学有了兴趣。
第一次，我创作并投稿了。虽然并不知道会不会登唉。
第一次，我自己一个人去看恐怖片片，而且左右两旁都没人那种。觉得自己很白痴为什么特地去买隔壁没有人的位置啊啊啊啊。
第一次，自己搭巴士去逛街。
第一次，自己跟自己去看电影。
第一次，自己在书店看完了一本书然后就省下了买书的一笔钱LOL
第一次，自己搭lrt到central market. （虽然现在常常自己去了- -
第一次，自己在kl自己乱乱走。
第一次，自己和学校同学到kl 乱走。然后寻找美食w
第一次，自己的名字出现在confession page >>>没错就是告白 = = （还是不懂是谁
第一次，自己有了笔友。
第一次，我去了饥饿30，跟他们一起领养了5个孩子 :')
第一次，我去了朋友（学记）的家过夜/sleepover. (父母不给的
第一次，我去了BIGBANG concert，也是我第一次去演唱会。 至今无法忘怀。若有机会也许还会去一次吧。很开心可以见到自己的偶像，真的。虽然花了不少钱.........
第一次，我为了要站在好的位置早上大概8点就到了stadium 外面等晚上8点开场的演唱会。

有太多太多的第一次了。
也许某天我会展开我的环球之旅。
那便是我最想要体会到的，第一次。
超短篇变成超长篇了。但是我爽就行了呵呵。

继续预考。w

lovess,

angie.

兴奋的我

呵呵
好久没update 了。
现在才明白你讲的话==
原来你来看过我的部落格，对不？
但愿我没有理解错误 xD
信出乎意料的快到 w
哈哈 你告诉我的时候我对着荧幕不停的傻笑
很像个疯子 (砸
幸亏没有人进我的房间，不然一定送我去tanjung rambutan LOL
总之就是很开心啦。
很久没有酱开心了。真的。
嘿嘿 期待你的回信喔。
觉得你的笔迹应该美我的很多吧==

不知道你会不会看到这个post哈哈。xD 为了你update 我的blog是否觉得很感动 w

当然我也要说说别的事。:p
Finally it's gonna be over, I think.
Well that's what I THINK.
But most probably it won't be over, that's what happens everytime.
Didn't get to go for outing with friends, again.
Kind of, sad. Okay maybe not. Idk.
Because have to go for camp sigh.
Daddy is going outstation AGAIN.
It's somehow quite sad but it's actually a good news LOL.
Cause he will be leaving on Thursday and my camp is on Friday lol.
It's just like the huazong thingy haha. At first he don't really let but he went to china xD
And I ended up sleeping over at ah weng house. That's what my dad always membantah hahhhaha.
Trial is coming really soon.
Obviously, I'm not prepared AT ALL. Sad case.
I can imagine my results for add maths already.
Whyyy is add maths so damn tough. Okay actually it's my fault, I have never did any exercise for add math :p

Too tired to continue. Nights :D
Can't wait to receive the letter heheeheh weeeeeeeee imma happy girl.

Taken for granted.

I'm always taken for granted.
No matter where i am. Societies or groups or anything.
Nobody seems to appreciate me. Okay maybe not all of them.
But still, don't you think it's kind of disappointing that you gave all you have but people don't give a shit about you. I'm not blaming. Maybe you think i'm, but i'm not.
I'm just trying to state the fact that people just won't learn to appreciate.
Even me myself don't really learn how to appreciate.
I'm still trying to learn. Someday maybe they lost what they have, they/I might learn to appreciate.
Still. I'm kind of disappointed with them. Always.
I thought they might change their attitude but apparently they won't.
They don't even give a shit about what i said, i guess?
Seriously. I hope they won't make me way to fed up till i have no choice but to leave.
Leave them.. Hmm. Idk. I have always wanted to be a responsible person.
But no a person to be taken for granted.
I have such a busy life. That i don't even have the time to finish my homework and stuff.
I felt so sick of this life man.
Always have to do this and that. Meeting here and there.
Uncountable work to do. Serious shit? But people are skipping meeting here and there.
Hah, i'm speechless man. Dude, you should seriously do what you should be doing.
Kay i shall skip to the other topic.
I think people should think before they speak. Before they started to scream and scold and blame people.
You should see, if you are really THAT responsible when you're scolding the others.
Hmm. It's not for me to judge. But, that's what i see.
Kind of disappointed with le friend. Or maybe i have already given up fighting.
Sigh. Such a pitiful life i have.
Dad said he's gonna stop me from going out next month. Lol.
I guess it's a good thing? At least someone could control me. And i would have a reason not to go.
For ALL the activities. Time to stop i guess.
Orelse i don't think i would have time to study for SPM.
抱歉，我不曾拥有归属感。
Just wanna say this out. What's in my heart.
Because they never cared. Why should i give a * damn then.
I'm not an angel or robot. I still do have feelings.
The moment my anger reach the highest point, that's it.
It's over. Don't ever try to cross my limits.
Oh and i'm going for marching for the sports day this year ^^v
Muahaha. Although i don't really know how to march but, can't wait for it.
Kinda nervous :p
And btw, i saw my ex campers during the xueji camp this year :D
Heheh took photo with 'em. Damn happy when i saw them.

Nights.

xoxo. -imperfections-