不堪。

I have no idea what to do.
Have to admit that I started to feel scared. I'm afraid.
I really do.
Counting down. Day by day.
Just few more days to go.
But I'm not prepared at all, NOT AT ALL.
When people asked what have I studied, I didn't know what to answer.
I don't even know what I'm doing these few days.
Not enough time already.
What should I do now?

I felt so insecure.
Sigh. Who do I mean to you actually?
Too much stuff. Bothering me, distracting me.
I feel like running away.
Dad came back already. Mom didn't know what to say to me already.
I'm a bad bad bad kid.
Add maths is killing me. I spent all my time doing add math and didn't bother to care about bm or sej or eng or even accounts.
Damn.
I should chill now, and start to study.
Few more days.

说实话原来是这样的，那种感受。
如果真的就这样结束了，我该怎么办？
自己的心，连自己都不清楚呢。
究竟自己要的是什么，想的是什么？！乱。
现在不是时候。
很心烦很担忧很思念很慌乱很无助。
但你不在，一直都。
我无法向任何人诉说我的担忧我的惊慌我的无助只能装作我很好。
罢了。就是这样，才能成长不是吗？

迷茫。迷惘。

兴奋的我

呵呵
好久没update 了。
现在才明白你讲的话==
原来你来看过我的部落格，对不？
但愿我没有理解错误 xD
信出乎意料的快到 w
哈哈 你告诉我的时候我对着荧幕不停的傻笑
很像个疯子 (砸
幸亏没有人进我的房间，不然一定送我去tanjung rambutan LOL
总之就是很开心啦。
很久没有酱开心了。真的。
嘿嘿 期待你的回信喔。
觉得你的笔迹应该美我的很多吧==

不知道你会不会看到这个post哈哈。xD 为了你update 我的blog是否觉得很感动 w

当然我也要说说别的事。:p
Finally it's gonna be over, I think.
Well that's what I THINK.
But most probably it won't be over, that's what happens everytime.
Didn't get to go for outing with friends, again.
Kind of, sad. Okay maybe not. Idk.
Because have to go for camp sigh.
Daddy is going outstation AGAIN.
It's somehow quite sad but it's actually a good news LOL.
Cause he will be leaving on Thursday and my camp is on Friday lol.
It's just like the huazong thingy haha. At first he don't really let but he went to china xD
And I ended up sleeping over at ah weng house. That's what my dad always membantah hahhhaha.
Trial is coming really soon.
Obviously, I'm not prepared AT ALL. Sad case.
I can imagine my results for add maths already.
Whyyy is add maths so damn tough. Okay actually it's my fault, I have never did any exercise for add math :p

Too tired to continue. Nights :D
Can't wait to receive the letter heheeheh weeeeeeeee imma happy girl.