Fake.

I have no idea what i have been feeling for the past few months.
Happiness, frustrated, sad, or perhaps a feeling of being back stabbed.
It's really tiring.
I think I have lost my dignity while chasing after butterflies which i know i would never be able to catch.
Everyone around me who knows advice me once, twice even thrice that i should not, should never.
But i don't even know what i'm doing anymore.
I'm so ridiculous, whatever i'm doing now is absurd.
Why would i lose myself for nothing?
I need to find my old self which don't give a damn about anything.
IF AND ONLY IF.
BUT NO, THERE IS NO SUCH THING.
I remembered at the beginning they asked that question, which indeed really happened and yep, I really did lost.
I know i just can't and should not hate, but i'm really frustrated.
I can't do this anymore.
Give me a break.

Wanna travel to somewhere again hehe.
Still looking into it either aus first to visit suet.
Or maybe singapore, a short one.
Perhaps Hong Kong would be possible too.
Gimme a lil bit more time and i will get over all these shitty things and people that happened in my life.
I wanted, really wanted to trust you.
But after all these, i just don't think i can trust anymore.
Too many fake faces, too many lies, too complicated to understand.

我的心还没有这么大，能够原谅。
我不是圣人，尤其你是我的朋友。
但是我不会，永远都不会再相信你。

21/1/2017 Sat
下午 1536