Showing posts with label him. Show all posts
Showing posts with label him. Show all posts

Thursday, April 3, 2014

A good start, probably.

On the day when we were getting our SPM results, I saw her.
Well of course she's with her friend.
The one that she decided to go with her.
Hmm actually it doesn't bothers me anymore.
This incident actually happened to me once, with the other person.
But until now, I'm still really close with that person. I'm glad that till now I still have her :)
I have actually doubted if I should give up on that friendship but luckily,  I didn't do it.
That's all about it. Not a big deal though.
So yeah she went off with her friend & and I went for my driving class.
Oh yeah I lost my phone.  Like literally lost it.
Dropped it and someone took it.
Because that person offed the phone zzz. Idiotic shit why the hell you steal my phone.
It's not even IPhone or any latest smart phone damn you man seriously.
So I went for driving lesson & before that the uncle only had to fetch me to school.
But he changed his mind because I lost my phone can't contact my parents to fetch me home from school. He waited for me while I take my spm results & fetched me back home at last :)
He's such a good uncle! Glad that I had such a good driving instructor :)
I GOT 9 As.  5A, 4A-,1B+.
Felt really grateful that I got 9 As.
I wouldn't say that my hard work pays off because I didn't actually worked hard.
Overstressed myself during spm and didn't really studied much.
But still I felt a little disappointed cause I got B+ for add maths.
And I didn't get any A+ sigh.
The worst thing is I can't get any scholarship using this results sighhh.
Can't lessen the burden for my family :(
I registered for A levels at TARC already.
I pledge that I would work hard and get good results.
No more slacking, no more playing around.  Time to be serious.
I should not will not procrastinate anymore.
Cause it's A levels so I can't get any loans nor scholarship sigh.
So yeah gotta work hard!
Shouldn't be bothered by small small matters anymore.
Or maybe shouldn't be in a relationship yet LOLOL hahah dk man.

Heh went ou the other day to work.
My job scope was to help people to print out photos & post it on Facebook if they're willing to.
This was a Nestlé roadshow.
Kinda big though. Met a brainless partner lol ok maybe not.
I was frustrated cause she talked bad about me, and her attitudes toward me.
She often talks to me in a rude way & I HATE IT.
I seriously hate it when people talk to me in a rude way.
Dude did you parents taught you to respect people? Can't you like speak in a polite way?
Hmm probably it's my fault because I always day dream while working lolol kay nvm.
Oh and the one I'm obsessed to is working in ou also HAHA.
So erm I actually asked him to have dinner/lunch with me and take photo at my photo booth.
GUESS WHAT?  HE CAME HEHEH and find me during his break.
So I decided to go for break with him so erm we went to eat dinner I think?  Cause it's around 5.
We talked a lot,  like literally a lot during the dinner haha.
Not very awkward though.  Lucky that it's not awkward haha I thought it'll be awkward :p
So yeah time passes really fast then we finished our dinner.
Idk what made me so brave,  but I told him hey we haven take photo yet.
It's around 6 already so I guess you have to go back already right?
He said no la i still have some time.
We went to take photo and he left after that hahah.
A good start, probably?

But too bad I started being not that obsessed with him already LOLOL.
Heh anyways still he started replying my message and not ignoring my msg anymore yay ^^

Bought few stuff yesterday and spent damn a lot of money.
A black jegging from padini which costs 60 bucks. Sienz cause I didn't have a proper and comfortable black pants.
Bought a bag for 55 bucks sigh used up over 100 already.
And a black shoe from voir luckily it costs only 23 heh.
Spending money like water zzz. Gotta control myself already.
Paid A levels first sem fees yesterday.
Spending money everywhere argh.

Sunday, January 5, 2014

信任。

说实话我有点惊讶于你的变化==
好吧从一开始来说我真的不明白你要表达的是什么。可能我真的是迟钝==++
我很犹豫那是否只是我自己想太多,因为我们的交集貌似称不上多?
只是到后来你整个人的说话语调变了,一直刺刺的。
你说的话太深奥了我要想很久才可以回复 /.\
也许我没有经历过你所经历的所以我没有什么资格说什么。
有时候不是每个人都是坏,都是虚假,都是不能信的。
我也是不会轻易去信任别人的一个人。只是我是为了保护自己。
我会选择去相信一两个我觉得可以去信任的人,然后告诉他/她我的想法/秘密等等。
如果他/她背叛了我,我会对自己说,那是一个成长的时候会经历的过程。
我没有说我不信任你,同时我没有说过我信任你。
因为我还不知道你是否是那一个我可以全心全意去信任的人。
我希望也许有一天你真的能去感受别人对你的好,即使只是一个微笑。
我不是一个很好的人,我很自私我很霸道很任性很固执很麻烦偶尔很虚假。
就如你说的每个人都有必要虚假的时刻,我也是这样。
但是我不会随意去伤害任何一个人,这是我的承诺。
信不信由你。
也许你会很不屑于我所说的,不过这些是我的真心话。
说不要对号入座但是我还是呃想对号入座一次
如果真的只是过客我会很敷衍或者很干脆的不回复你。也不会在犹豫许久后打了这篇呃我不觉得你会看的东东。

Thursday, September 5, 2013

莫名的。

预考了将近一个星期。
还是没有那种在考试的感觉。
我怎么了?不懂,真的不懂。
昨晚熬夜到4点。而且是2点多才开始读的。之前,就不说了。
都没再读。不停的告诉自己,这个考试很重要。
可是我究竟在做什么?我不懂。陷入了迷惘。
明天考华语。嗯。
说实话,到了部落那里看到太多文笔很好的人。
自以为文笔算是不错的我,发觉到其实我的文笔根本不值一提。
我不是一个很会表达自己的人。所以很容易让人误会。
但是我不喜欢用语言来伤人。
所以我很努力的,学习在表达。
福炎的信收到了。呵呵那种亲自拿着信的感觉真不同。
只是不知何时才会有时间回复。幻月我的信流失了吗?唉。

真的有种莫名的自卑。
看着那些文笔很好很好很好的人。
心中就会冒出一句话说,你那么差,根本不应该和他们有什么交集。
因为你,不配。
确实甭否认。我果然还是败了,败在自己的手里。
很努力的在压抑着那种感觉,很无措。
过于成熟的世界,不适合我吧。太过犀利的语言,我受不了。
我是个小孩,不想长大的小孩。
我只有一句话。
请不要忘了我,好吗?


默默的守着你,我不在意。
也许偶尔你会想起我。亦或者你不会记得我。
夜幕降临的时刻,是否会想起曾经的我们。
绵绵的雨,就如我,对你的思念。

对自己说声加油。晚安。

Friday, February 10, 2012

Busy life.

VALENTINES DAY IS COMING ;)
I can feel love in the air hehehe.
But not for me. #forever alone
:(
Urrh, having test right now.
So darn busy like shit.
Seriously i feel like jumping off the building lol.
-________-
So damn frigging stressed out man.
Like meeting meeting everyday.
Tuition, tuition and tuition.
Proposal, proposal and proposal.
Don't even have free time for myself.
Don't even have time to take a nap in the afternoon.
IT'S JUST A NAP. NAP AND I DON'T EVEN HAVE TIME.
I was like what theeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
Damn it.
Stay back almost every single day. -.-
And that stupid test. :(
Don't even have time to do proposal.
And blogging lol.
So tired.
Ahhhhhhhh. I wonder why.
BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
I don't wanna talk about it but i'm so disappointed.
Like, honestly. I want to give up...
I don't know why but everything changed this year.
Maybe there's some magic or stuffs changed them?
I don't know. But it seriously making me so fed up.
Everytime i think about it. Urh.
WHATEVER I DON'T WANNA CARE ANYMORE.

And him. (;
Lol. So random weih.
Errrrr, muahahah i'm his secret admirer HAHAHAHAHAHA.
I don't know whats so funny but it's still funny. :P
Kthxbai.

Loves,
angie hui mei

Friday, January 20, 2012

Days with you.

I didn't expect to get such a lot of work during the chinese new year holiday.
Like honestly, i don't have anytime to do that man.
Super tired everyday.
Tuition, homework, co-curriculum and stuffs.
Omg, everything is killing me. :(
Stay back for almost everyday.
I don't know what can i do to release my stress urhh.
I'm afraid one day i will go crazy and do something crazy.
Helped out in librarian interview.
Actually it's not helping la, cause i'm b.o.d so it's a must to interview the new probates.
But it doesn't really goes well.
Cause my english sucks like shit. :/
Was trying my best to ask question, but when Xin Jin left, everything is in a mess.
Like, seriously a mess.
I'm not blaming anyone or what. I think i should speak more or whatever la.
I should improve my english man. But it's HARD. :(
Oh yeah, i was trying to find him today.
But too bad i can't find him. Will miss him during the holidays heheheh. :P
And my holiday is not holiday, cause there will be whole loads of works waiting for me.
SICK AND TIRED OF EVERYTHING. :(

Kthxbai.
Loves, angie hui mei.